Miscarriages and Losses

Hey everyone!

     I'm back at it with a new blog! This time we are going to talk about life's sad loses. A few months ago I suffered two miscarriages back to back. It was by far the worst thing I had  ever experienced in my life. I had gotten pregnant with our third child. My husband and I were so happy because we were so ready to take on this new chapter in our lives. From my experience of taking home pregnancy tests I've noticed (DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A DOCTOR) that when a home pregnancy test tests positive you are usually around the 5 week or more mark. That's what I experienced and known to be true for MY body. Sorry I have to put in the "disclaimer" and "my" before someone throws the "rule book of medical law and shit" at me LMAO! Yes I know that doesn't exists!

     So here I am pregnant and happy because according to my gyno I was almost 3 months pregnant. Then one day I started feeling some really intense cramping. I was worried because this wasn't normal. Then after a long 30 to 45 minutes later I went to the bathroom and noticed a lot of blood coming out from down there! I just started crying a lot. I told my husband, that amazing man called out of work that day to be there for me the entire day. He even came with me to the gyno as well! YES I'm a lucky girl! So after 2-3 weeks later we got the go ahead from my gyno and decided to try again.

     About 2 months and a half later (from the time we decided to try again) I got pregnant again! But I didn't allow myself to get to happy because I was still hurting from the last miscarriage. So after calling the gyno and informing her I'm pregnant again we made an appointment for a ultrasound. Now this is about to get really confusing so please stay with me! I went in all excited to see my new baby with my husband right next to me. As the ultrasound is "inside" me she finds the sack but NO BABY in it! So she looked worried right off the bat. I flat out said to her, "this isn't good at all. Where is the baby?!". She told me that maybe it was to soon. She rescheduled me for another ultrasound in 2 weeks. I had HCG blood tests every 2 days and they were doubling everyday which was amazing.

An example of a blight ovum.

     Here we are 2 weeks later at the gynos office for the ultrasound. She puts the ultrasound wand in me and sees there is still a sack but NO BABY! That's when she broke down to me that I was having a "blight ovum" which is when a fertilized egg attaches itself to the uterine wall but the baby doesn't developed. I have never heard of or experienced anything like this. So I was given a pill to abort the pregnancy because there was no baby. If I didn't my body would still have the cravings of a pregnant lady and my HCG levels would still go high. I swear the human body is a very beautiful thing! So we decided to just stop trying. It was to much for me emotionally and my hormones got all messed up. Which is why I feel I was having the weight issues. I need time to heal and just go with my life. Thank you all so much for coming back and reading my blog! Enjoy the ride!